Charles
08-23-2009, 11:58 AM
Hello, my name is Charles. Many of you know me as LightningStrike. Some of you know me as Chuck, Charles, and a good many of you know me as friend.
I came to the Jedi Path roughly 9 Years ago, but I sat foot on it much earlier than that. Like most young children I was enamored with Star Wars and especially those mystical figures the Jedi. My mother encouraged this because she felt there was a strong moral within those first three movies. She felt I could gain a lot from the ideals, the strength, and the wisdom found within them.
She was right.
As time progressed I grew from boy to man. I found myself slip away from old beliefs and into new ones. I discovered mysticism, the occult, magick, chi, martial arts, a whole world out there. At the age of 19 my mother died, and my father was living so far away that his presence was of no purpose.
I graduated from young man to adult instantly. I was thrown head first into a world of people who I felt distant from, disconnected from, and opposed to. I was thrown into Chaos.
Over time I met a man who would become first my mentor and then my friend. He made a statement about the mysticism I was studying comparing it to "using the Force".
Memories flooded me, I learned from him as much as I could, I trained hard. In time coincidences began to pile up. I found myself in possession of, of all things, the Star Wars RPG manual. In this book came detailed guidelines for training as and becoming a Jedi. I found the Jedi Academy series. I had no friends save but a handful and I was without communications to the outside world most of the time. My life was like a prison and yet I found freedom within it. I found strength in my solitude and in time I found peace.
I became a Jedi.
I set about to do as much good as I could with what I had learned. I set about also to become stronger than I had been before. I had many ups and many downs within that time. I suffered the trial of loss again when my friend died.
I became stronger.
I found someone to spend my time, and my life with, I began communicating with the outside world again. In time I felt alive, well, and normal. In time I also became injured, I allowed that injury to defeat me. In time...
I fell.
I fell hard not once, not twice, not a number of countable times. I began the downward spiral. I hit hard several times. I put off who I was. I turned against the name Jedi for a period of time yet I never turned my back on my friends. During my fall, I learned much of my nature.
I learned that a man can not run forever.
I found a time, a place, a setting, in which I was needed once again. I found friends who supported and cared for me. I found my connection back to my own God Thor. I found myself also within that a Jedi once more. I found myself to be a fighter, strong willed, and focused.
I began my climb out of my own depths.
As I write this I am on this climb. I am taking each rung of the ladder day by day. I am growing stronger every day. Because one day we all come across a time when we are needed. My only real fear is what would happen if I wasn't strong enough when that time came, what if all I could do was sit back and watch.
So this is who I am. I am a deep man, a simple man, a strong man, a weak man, at various points in my life I've been a man of virtue and a man of spite.
I'm here to day.
For Thor.
For Midgard.
For the Force.
Cleric of Thor, Champion, Jedi
Charles M
I came to the Jedi Path roughly 9 Years ago, but I sat foot on it much earlier than that. Like most young children I was enamored with Star Wars and especially those mystical figures the Jedi. My mother encouraged this because she felt there was a strong moral within those first three movies. She felt I could gain a lot from the ideals, the strength, and the wisdom found within them.
She was right.
As time progressed I grew from boy to man. I found myself slip away from old beliefs and into new ones. I discovered mysticism, the occult, magick, chi, martial arts, a whole world out there. At the age of 19 my mother died, and my father was living so far away that his presence was of no purpose.
I graduated from young man to adult instantly. I was thrown head first into a world of people who I felt distant from, disconnected from, and opposed to. I was thrown into Chaos.
Over time I met a man who would become first my mentor and then my friend. He made a statement about the mysticism I was studying comparing it to "using the Force".
Memories flooded me, I learned from him as much as I could, I trained hard. In time coincidences began to pile up. I found myself in possession of, of all things, the Star Wars RPG manual. In this book came detailed guidelines for training as and becoming a Jedi. I found the Jedi Academy series. I had no friends save but a handful and I was without communications to the outside world most of the time. My life was like a prison and yet I found freedom within it. I found strength in my solitude and in time I found peace.
I became a Jedi.
I set about to do as much good as I could with what I had learned. I set about also to become stronger than I had been before. I had many ups and many downs within that time. I suffered the trial of loss again when my friend died.
I became stronger.
I found someone to spend my time, and my life with, I began communicating with the outside world again. In time I felt alive, well, and normal. In time I also became injured, I allowed that injury to defeat me. In time...
I fell.
I fell hard not once, not twice, not a number of countable times. I began the downward spiral. I hit hard several times. I put off who I was. I turned against the name Jedi for a period of time yet I never turned my back on my friends. During my fall, I learned much of my nature.
I learned that a man can not run forever.
I found a time, a place, a setting, in which I was needed once again. I found friends who supported and cared for me. I found my connection back to my own God Thor. I found myself also within that a Jedi once more. I found myself to be a fighter, strong willed, and focused.
I began my climb out of my own depths.
As I write this I am on this climb. I am taking each rung of the ladder day by day. I am growing stronger every day. Because one day we all come across a time when we are needed. My only real fear is what would happen if I wasn't strong enough when that time came, what if all I could do was sit back and watch.
So this is who I am. I am a deep man, a simple man, a strong man, a weak man, at various points in my life I've been a man of virtue and a man of spite.
I'm here to day.
For Thor.
For Midgard.
For the Force.
Cleric of Thor, Champion, Jedi
Charles M